When you think you can’t do it anymore, a light appears from somewhere

 

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This is a literal translation of a German phrase. If you think you’ve reached the end, something good will happen to you, giving you hope. I guess, as with all sayings, there’s an element of truth behind it. It’s just happened to me and the light in this case is a job. It’s been two weeks of weird coincidences and events, I would like to tell you about.

Since the start of August both my partner (Jack) and I have been unemployed and Tuesday last week, we went to the job centre to apply for benefits whilst continuing to look for jobs. I felt like I couldn’t fall any lower but then things changed. I was still in my meeting when Jack sat down on a sofa a couple of metres behind me, waiting for me. As the lady who dealt with me went to the printer, he whispered my name, I turned around and he told me he had just been offered a job. How strange, of all moments, the news came during our visit to the job centre. To be honest, I didn’t jump up and down, but swallowed. I always expected that he would find a job much more easily, but that easily?! Of course, I saw the positives and was happy for him, but at the same time I wondered what I was doing wrong.

After the delayed initial excitement, I realised that nothing much had changed for me. My job hunt continued. But Saturday night last weekend ,just as I turned off the light to go to sleep, I had this weird gut feeling, telling me that I would receive good news next week. I hoped it was right, with two interviews, the opportunities were there! Monday morning I had the first interview and a couple of days later, I was finally offered a job too. Again, it took me until the next day to realise what it meant. It was the light I so desperately needed.

To motivate myself during the job hunt, I sometimes told myself that I had to get myself out of this misery as no one else would do it for me. I guess that’s reflective of another principle that predominates our ideas of success and that is that you need to work hard if you want to achieve something. However, I had been putting so much time and effort into finding a job – too long without success, without a reward. I was working in the dark. In the end, it’s not only up to me but it also needs someone who gives me a chance.

Just as I can relate some sayings to real life situations, I also believe that things happen for a reason. It just helps me to make sense of life. I’m not quite sure yet what the unemployment was good for, but I’ll let you know if I should ever find out. I think I can definitely refer to one other phrase here that holds true in a situation of despair: What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

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